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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
03 July 2009 @ 03:04 pm

The Dog Days of summer, the hottest days of the year in the Northern Hemisphere, start today. What's your favorite thing to do in hot weather?


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Sleep.


Ugh, I HATE the heat. If I could, I'd just stay in my room in front of my fan for the next two months.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
29 June 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 15:52 Just found a hard of broken glass in my smoothie. Mmmmmm, death smoothie! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
23 June 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 20:39 There is no water! AGAIN!!! >:S #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
21 June 2009 @ 07:56 pm
List 10 of your favorite characters from different fandoms, and ask people to spot patterns in your choices, and if they're so inclined, to draw conclusions about you based on the patterns they've spotted.




1. Harry Potter - Luna Lovegood
2. Star Trek - Data
3. DS9 - Odo
4. Marvel Comics - Deadpool
5. Being Human - George
6. Eureka - Jim Taggart
7. The X-files - The Lonegunmen
8. Heroes - Syar
9. House - Kutner :(
10. Torchwood - Ianto


This was hard cause I generally have several favorites in each fandom!
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
20 June 2009 @ 12:23 pm
I'm doing a little experiment this year. Since January; I've been recording every book I read to find out just how many I actually put away in 12 months. I did this once before in, like, 9th grade (not for a grade or anything, just to know), and it came out to 108. That time I recorded how many pages each book contained, as well, so I could figure out an average, and then see if the count was raised or lowered when I divided total pages by the average page count (yeah, I was a nerd, that shouldn't be a surprise to anyone here). It only changed by a few decimal points, so I decided to forgo that this time.

SO! Since January 1, 2009, in just 6 1/2 months, I have read 61 books, 62 if you count the one I got half way through and then lost interest in, 63 if you count that and the book I am currently reading which I should have finished by tomorrow. So! It looks like I may beat my previous score if things continue on this way.

However, I know my reading volume fluctuates depending on certain variables in my life. For example, I did not have a job until about 4 months ago. Well, I did have a job, but it was only 8 hours per week, and was easily done on very little sleep, therefore I could get a lot of reading done in one night (i.e. an entire 600+ page book I just could NOT put down (historical fiction about Celtic historical/mythic figures) but I digress). Now that I do have a job, I need to sleep more, and at specific times, so I usually manage to interrupt myself in the middle of a book to do so.

I also know the amount I read is inverse to my ability to get online. For a while when I had the internet at home, I was reading very little to nothing in book form, and just spending all my time on my computer. I don't have the internet at home at the moment, and I don't see that changing any time soon, so I don't think that will cause a dent in my reading too much as far as the next several months are concerned.

It's also summer, and there are more things to do in general. The kids are out of school, family comes to visit, there are things out of doors to do and see... who knows.

Here's a list of all the books I've read in the past 6 months:
63 )
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
11 June 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 18:51 This house is fucking INSANE! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
25 May 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 21:54 Just bought myself a new bathing suit for the first time ever! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
22 May 2009 @ 02:41 pm
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
09 May 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 02:28 Just got my first drunk asshole of the night. He called me a dumb bitch and my manager a coon. Needless to say, he didnt get his snack wrap. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
03 May 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 00:31 Maresie dotes an dosie dotes an lil lamsey disey akiddilly divey do! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
02 May 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 01:24 First overnight shift at McD's. Two hours in. God, this is boring. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
01 May 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 01:06 I have had an awful day. #
  • 01:11 @zestylime. If you're up and want to talk, call me. 413-429-7481 #
  • 04:34 There's a raspberry strudle in my shower. What the fuck? #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
11 April 2009 @ 03:41 pm
This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
4.1
Mind:
4.1
Body:
3
Spirit:
7
Friends/Family:
5
Love:
1.4
Finance:
6.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz


What it means. )

Short: Life sucks and then you die. Figures.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
03 April 2009 @ 04:22 pm
I'm back on Facebook under 'Patricia Werner' if anyone wants to re-add me.

I got an emial from the FB people saying they shut down my old account and are 'looking into it', but they asked me for my security question as verification, and I have no doubts in my mind that the hackers already changed it as they did my Yahoo one, so I don't think it will help at all.


Speaking of Yahoo, does anyone know how to actually report a stolen account? Cause I keep trying to, and they keep asking me my security question, which has been changed. There doesn't seem to be any other way to go about this. Any one have experiance here? Am I just going to have to give up on it? I do have several other email accounts, but this is my main one and I'd like to get it back.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
30 March 2009 @ 05:45 pm
Sometime in the past few days someone got a hold of my screen name and passwords for my FaceBook, yahoo, and gmail accounts. So, if any of you have gotten anything from those accounts recently, it's not me. I'm pretty sure it happened just a few hours ago, since everyone I asked seemed pretty surprised at the changed in my FB profile. As far as hackers go, this one was pretty useless. I don't know what they've done with my email yet, but all they did in FB was post some offensive status reports and try to text a friend of my sister's telling her I'm pregnant (which is laughable to everyone who knows me even a little).

[info]zestyime took a screencap of my facebook:

The Damage )
and if any of you want to go over and heap on some abuse, or just hit 'report' be my guest.


So, yeah, that's it. What I'm really upset over is my email. I've had the yahoo account for 6 or 7 years now, and I'm pretty protective of my screen name. I hope I can fix all this and get them back. :sigh: I really didn't need this right now.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
30 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 13:07 I love kids because the smallest things make them happy. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
29 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 10:56 My manager just told a coustomer to 'check his attitude outside' XD #
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28 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
27 March 2009 @ 02:17 pm
Yep  

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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
27 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 15:20 It's for moments like this that Mythbusters exists: tinyurl.com/d3z9kn #
  • 16:26 OMG I NEED ONE!!! tinyurl.com/d9mao8 #
  • 17:52 Completely mixed up toady. Keep thinking it's Saturday. #
  • 18:37 I love the sound of rain on the hood of my car, or rain on any roof, really. It's a safe sound. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
26 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 17:43 I really have to try to remember to not get into debates while sick. My point is not being made due to head-befuddlement. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
25 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 15:29 Accidentally bought sparkling water instead of plain. Yuck. #
  • 19:24 ARGH! I am SO fed up with these people! If I had a place to go I'd leave TONIGHT!! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
22 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 14:16 @queenanthai :crosses fingers and toes: #
  • 14:41 @ZESTYLIME YOU ARE ADORABLE AND I JUST WANT TO SQUOOSH YOU, OKAY!? :D #
  • 14:47 I suddenly have a huge hankering for a 'Housie', a sandwich made by a local deli. Roast beef, swiss, onions, and horseradish on a grinder. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
21 March 2009 @ 05:06 pm
I uploaded a new icon.
I made it a while ago for one of my friends.
It's kind of blah, not my best, but I felt like using it.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
21 March 2009 @ 04:11 pm
Wednesday
My new job didn't get off to a very good start, what with me forgetting to actually turn on my alarm, and getting there an hour late, but no one seemed to mind since I was just training anyway. Woo!

I did a bunch of training on the computer. A lot more than I was supposed to, actually. No one was actually expecting me, you see, because there is another person with my name who comes in from another location sometimes, so they thought she was coming in and not me. Basically, one Crew Trainer sat me down, said 'Do this this this, and I think... this.' and then left. When I was done, another Crew Trainer (and I think that day's manager) said 'Well, you're really only supposed to go this and this' both of which the other trainer hadn't had me do. So, when I was done with those, they put me on the front counter for the remaining 20 minuets of my shift. Then I went home and to the library, woo!


Thursday
As soon as I came in, they put me on the front counter. It wasn't really busy, as I was scheduled 6 to 10pm. Everyone was really nice, and it seems like everyone gets along. There was one guy who was REALLY condescending, though I don't think he meant to be. He's just one of those people who, when you ask a question, can't just answer it, but has to explain it to you, like you're a four-year-old and maybe retarded to boot. When I asked the location of a certain button, he can't just point it out like everyone else does, no, he has to go 'Now... with chicken sandwiches... what we do is... you have to ask if they want... crispy... or if they want... grilled... and then... what you do is...' when I only said 'I can't find the grilled button.' I don't know how long he would have went on (with a line of about five people waiting, even) if I hadn't said 'JUST POINT TO THE BUTTON PLEASE!' Later that shift, he tried to take five minuets to teach me how to make tea instead of just telling me where the hot water spout was located. I don't know if he thinks I'm stupid, or if he's just dealt with so many idiots he doesn't give anyone the benefit of doubt, or if he's just an ass.


I really hope my temper/attitude doesn't get me into trouble with this guy. I found myself almost asking another coworker 'So, it's [name redacted] a tool, or what?' a couple times. Not trying to stir up shit, just genuinely wanting to know, so I can act accordingly. I just have NO patience for some people, especially if they talk down to me, or if I think they are. Another lady who I worked with yesterday was doing the same thing, but once she saw I had it under control, she STOPPED and started treating me like an actual person instead. That brings me to:

Friday
I got there on time this time! Actually a bit early. Yey! :D
It was a lot busier, and there were a few people who were out sick/went home sick, so it was also a bit tight. I went on front end right off, and that was cool. One of the people I had worked with the night before, and who was cool (not the tool) had been called in, so that was even better! Another trainer came in, an older lady who started out talking to me like a particularly slow-witted toddler and hovered over me, ready to catch any crises I was bound to get myself into. But I am a pretty fast learner. I'd already spent 4 hours doing this, and that's more than enough time to familiarize myself with all but the least practiced areas of the job. Basically... show me what to do, and be there if I have an actual question, because I WILL ask if I need to, but don't coddle me, I can fucking DO IT!
(lol, actually, that's been my attitude ever since I learned to walk, according to my mom)
ANYHOO! They were actually pretty impressed at how quickly I picked it up, and how well I was doing on front end, so they moved me to drive through. I was pretty anxious about that because I'm not the best at doing two things at once, attention wise. The headset almost gave me an anxiety attack. It's just a funny looking phone, really. I am much better with people face-to-face. But I persevered, and, despite them assigning me to The Tool again, it went pretty well.

Evidently, new trainees are usually kept to the four hour a day schedule for a week or so until they get the hang of it. They their hours increase a bit until they're up to full-time. Yesterday they had me work an extra 4 hours, and they asked me to stay for a full 8 again on Sunday. I don't know why, but this makes me strangely proud. I don't even really want to DO this job, but being good at it, and being recognized for that... it's still a good thing.

So, this is going well. I also met with my Job Counselor Tuesday, so the ball is rolling as far as the 'help' thing is concerned. She says I'll most likely qualify as disabled enough for Mass Rehab to take me on. This means I can get job training, and they can hook me up with other places, too. Admittedly, I don't know exactly what that means, but, shit, I need something. What I'm really aiming for is help with school. This place can help me pay off what I owe, get me financial help to go back to BCC, and maybe even get me a full waiver for a state college. That is good news. Cause, I really don't know WHAT the fuck I'm doing, but it's not getting the job done.
 
 
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21 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
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20 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 17:22 Is anyone else haveing issues with the new Twitter layout? It keeps crapping out on me when I try to read my whole follow list. :( #
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19 March 2009 @ 03:27 pm
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
18 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 16:41 Starting at McDonalds tomorrow. Suppose I'll have to shower tonight. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
16 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 14:11 At the mall. Gonna see Watchmen in about an hour. Coraline no longer playing here. :( #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
13 March 2009 @ 05:26 pm
I finally finished the season finale of Being Human last night (which was EPIC!!!), and I downloaded the newest episode of Heroes, too. Not having cable OR internet at home is SUCH a drag! I don't watch much TV, but what I DO watch I am really into. I wish I had more space on this crappy thing. I can only get about 2 or 3 episodes at a time right now.


Shows I need to catch up on:

-Psych
-House
-Eureka
-Venture Bros
-Metalpocalypse
-Dollhouse (maybe?)
-One Piece (Holy GOD am I behind on this)


Anyone have any shows you think I'd like? Links to where I can download them?
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
13 March 2009 @ 05:30 am
  • 18:18 I am really going to miss it here. #
  • 18:26 @wendilynnmaleup Yatta = I did it! #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
Things seem to be getting a bit better.

For one, it's getting warmer. For two, I've got a job!

I'm going to be starting at McDonalds tomorrow. Well, I don't know if I'm actually starting tomorrow, but I'm going in to do some paperwork and get my uniform. I don't know how well I'll do there, it's really the last place I want to work, but it's something at least. Hopefully, I will be able to find something better rather quickly. I'm not telling them that, of course. I really need the income. I don't expect to be there very long anyway. I don't play well with corporations.

The guy who interviewed me was really intense. It was like way too many people had been wasting way too much of his time and he was FED UP with it. "Can you take direction? Can you do what you're told to do how you're told to do it? Are you going to have any problems doing what you're told to do?" Haha, I LIED! So, yeah, fuck, this is not the job for me, but it's what I can get, so I'm going to go with it.

It's my last week at Berkshire Pulse. Saturday will be my last day, but the other front desk girl has been really sick all week, so I've been here almost every day instead of just Thursday and Saturday. This is good news for my finances! Also, my taxes came in sometime over the weekend, so I don't really have to worry about rent and such for a little while. This is a very good thing.

Once I deposit this pay check I'm going to have almost $1,000 in the bank. I really wish i could just take it all and pay off my school so I could go back, but I guess I'm going to have to keep up with the 'slow and steady' path. Although it feels like more 'slow' and no 'steady' these past few years. I'm going to go meet with me 'job counselor' for the first time on Tuesday. If I stick with this program, maybe I can actually get some help with everything I owe, or at least actually get some sort of game plan in order that's more efficient than 'Barely skim by and pray for a little extra to squirrel away for that someday in the future when I have enough' which doesn't really seem to be working. At all.

Even though I know I am alright financially for a little while, I don't feel like it. I'm still a bit nervy and worried about not having enough money, it's weird. I need to just... relax a bit, I think. But there's not going to be anything relaxing in the next few weeks, I don't think. Maybe I'll splurge and go see a movie this weekend. Either Coraline(if it's still playing around here), or Watchmen, I think. Wish I had someone to go with me, but then maybe I just need to be by myself, like REALLY by my self, for a little bit.

So, things are getting better. They're still not there yet, but getting there. That's something, at least.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
11 March 2009 @ 05:30 am
  • 16:43 Eating a McDonalds chicken salad. Hope I don't regret it. #
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07 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 21:48 OM NOM NOM STRAWBERRIES #
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06 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 18:05 This isn't fun anymore. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
05 March 2009 @ 06:37 pm
http://www.muckflash.com/?p=200

"It doesn’t help that Kenji uses only pre-recorded dog and cat noises to communicate and is able to vocalize his love through a 20 watt speaker in his chest."


Holy shit, the future is NOW! D:
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
04 March 2009 @ 05:51 pm
Dude, there's, like, a million people at the library today. Including the people I'm kind of trying to hide from. WTF, world? I was really looking forward to some not-cold quiet time today. :(

So, I lost my job. Again. Now I'm totally unemployed, instead of just skating by, but not really. Well, they did give me two weeks notice, so I'm still employed until next Saturday, but still. And I don't even have the option of unemployment this time, since I was working as an 'independent contractor', not a full employee, or whatever it'd be called.

I went to this place called 'Mass Rehab' up in Pittsfield yesterday. They're supposed to help people with disabilities get 'job skills' and find work. Their definition of 'disability' is kind of broad, but I think I'd qualify anyway. There's a six month waiting list for any service that costs money (which I think is job training and/or waivers for state college), but I've got an appointment with my counselor in two weeks, this time at the BCC South County Branch. Not a whole lot to do until then except fill out the paperwork. I'm also going to contact this place called 'Berkshire Works', and see if I can't get in with a temp agency. I am really getting desperate, here.

I babysat for Soka (one of the kids I live with) this morning. I was WAY too irritable for babysitting, but I had agreed to it a few days ago. We sat in the basement by the fire for a few hours, she made paper dolls and looked at pictures in her Star Wars Clone Wars book, and I tried to show her how to use a calculator. Then I made us grilled cheese. Not a bad morning, I was just not in the mood, really.

I hate not working towards anything in my life. There's no goal. I mean, yeah, I have the goal of 'find a job' which is just a step on the path of 'save money' which will facilitate both 'find a new place' and 'go back to school' and, very very far in the future 'get a new car', but those are all pretty vague and short-term, the same kind of goals I've had for the past few years. It's also pretty frustrating that none of the things I am doing to achieve these goals has been working. I'm actually backsliding, what with having NO job now instead of just 'not enough of a job'. Everything I'm doing is either a dead-end, or a 'hurry up and wait' kind of deal. I mean, I am getting things done, I can say 'Today I did this and this which will do that and help with that, too' but I'm still going home to a freezing cold room in a house of people I'd really rather not have to listen to or share space with, let alone socialize with, right now. I just don't ever want to go home, but there's nowhere else for me to go. It's kind of awful.
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
01 March 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 13:19 Current Earworm: Happiness Is A Warm Gun #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
28 February 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 21:22 No new Psych tonight :( #
  • 21:46 @TWITSUCKSHUGELY twitpic.com/1p2ej - AWWW, IT LOOKS SO SAD!!! D: #
  • 22:14 Rain rain rain rain rain. #
  • 23:23 @ihasatardis you sure there aren't lesser prizes for, say, 5/6 or 4/6? That's generally how those things operate. #
  • 23:30 i@ihasatardis That sucks. :( #
  • 23:45 @ihasatardis This is why I go for the scratch offs. Instant gratification if you win, no ambiguity if you don't #
  • 00:21 Mmmm, strawberries and cream. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
27 February 2009 @ 11:14 pm
I've heard a lot of good things about this show, so I've started downloading it to watch when I am sans-internet. Now, I know there was an original pilot which aired a while ago, and that there were some changes (re-casting, etc) between that and the series being put out now. Should I watch the pilot? Or am I okay, or even better off, just watching the series from ep1 on?

Anyone?
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
26 February 2009 @ 04:00 pm

Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test...


Outcast Genius


For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.

A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.

A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored better than half in all three, earning you the title of: Outcast Genius.

Outcast geniuses usually are bright enough to understand what society wants of them, and they just don't care! They are highly intelligent and passionate about the things they know are *truly* important in the world. Typically, this does not include sports, cars or make-up, but it can on occasion (and if it does then they know more than all of their friends combined in that subject).

Outcast geniuses can be very lonely, due to their being outcast from most normal groups and too smart for the room among many other types of dorks and geeks, but they can also be the types to eventually rule the world, ala Bill Gates, the prototypical Outcast Genius.

Congratulations!

You scored 87% on nerdiness, higher than 96% of your peers.
You scored 70% on geekosity, higher than 93% of your peers.
You scored 83% on dork points, higher than 100% of your peers.

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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
26 February 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 17:13 @sohmer It's more fun when you scream! #
  • 17:15 Feeling nostalgic today. Plus, am very very tired. #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
25 February 2009 @ 05:17 pm
Been so incredibly drained lately. No matter how much I sleep, 5 hours or 12, I still wake up feeling like I never closed my eyes. Having to wake up to a freezing room isn't any help. I wake up and it feels like late afternoon no matter what time it actually is. This introduces a feeling of finality I get when I wake up any time after 12. It's like I've wasted the day and it's too late to do anything but go back to bed. It's not like I can putter around the house, either. It's cold enough to see my breath all the time. Making a fire means getting so grimy and exhausted I might as well have stayed in my warm blankets anyway.

Last night I bought wood from the supermarket. It worked SO much better than the wood I get from the pile in the basement (I only bought it because said pile was empty and I didn't feel like dealing with the glares if I tried to chop and use wood that had just been brought in). But there's no way I can afford to buy it every night. It's $7 for a bag that lasts half the night. Then I wake up and it's cold enough to freeze the water in my glass anyway. It's the futility that gets to me. No matter how nice a fire I make at night, it's not going to last until I wake up, and that's when I need it the most. It's been in the 20s and teens again all this week. It really seems like spring will never get here.

My therapist says it's good for me to go to the library every day like I've been doing, but I still feel like I'm not accomplishing anything, which I'm really not, unless you count living another day. If only one of those place I applied to would call. I don't even have to get the job, though that would help, I just want something to show me it wasn't all a waste of my time and money spending the whole day driving to Pittsfield, writing the applications up, and putting them all in.

I'm starting to feel paranoid again, too. Like no body really wants me around, that everyone is thinking bad things about me. That the librarians don't want me hanging around here every day, but they can't really tell me to leave. That Emily doesn't want me staying at her house when I babysit, but she feel sorry for me, or just doesn't know how to tell me to go. That my sister is avoiding me because she doesn't care anymore. That my friends online don't talk to me because they're tired of all my shit. Every time I go home, I'm afraid this will be the day that they tell me they don't want me there anymore, and that I'll have to go to some awful place just because that's where I can afford instead of finding someplace I actually like. Or that they'll demand more money because they think I ran up the electric bill, or the phone bill, or because I've been using their wood. I feel incredibly alone, and I want to go home, but there's no home for me to go to.

I've been really homesick, too. I wan to see my mom and my grandma, but no one can afford for me to go visit right now, least of all me. I'm barely making enough to pay my rent this month, I may actually be a little short. And I still have to get gas, my tank is on E and the light blinked on on the way to the library today. Luckily I have a 30 cent off per gallon coupon, but it's still going to be a $20 I can't afford.

I have to call some numbers. One about my student loan that's defaulted, which I can't pay anything on anyway even if I do call their 'payment specialists' or whatever the fuck they call them. I've only got about $3 left on my cell phone, and that has to last at least till the 1st when, if I have it, I need to have $45 in the bank for them to refill it. Hopefully Em will need me to sit for her again Friday, and I'll get a little more. I hate getting by on the skin of my teeth. It's what my mom did all my life, and I vowed to never have to live that way. What did I know?
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
24 February 2009 @ 08:30 pm
  • 17:16 The library lady offered me tea. This makes me unreasonably happy. :) #
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22 February 2009 @ 07:11 pm
Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

Mine from [info]dune_drd:

- Snow
I love snow, I really do. I grew up in Florida, but was born in New York. I always hated Florida, and especially longed for the cold and snow. I'm a freak, I know. When I moved up to Mass, my mom said after one winter I'd hate it, but it's been 6 years now, and I'm still sad when Spring thaw hits.

- Twittering
Twitter is great. I was hesitant at first, getting into another social networking/blogging thing, but I got one. It was 6 months before I got into it in earnest, but then, it took me 3 years after signing up to get into LJ, and now look at me. Sometimes I just have a real quick idea or thought to relate, that I'd feel was too short for LJ, but is perfect for Twitter. Also, now that I don't have the internet at home, I can still feel connected at least a bit by Twittering from my cell.

- Internet withdrawal
Haha, when I say I'm addicted to the internet, I'm not trying to be clever or funny, it's a real problem. When I can't get online, don't have it at home, I feel... disconnected. I need the internet, it's my link to the world.

- Libraries
Libraries have always been my favorite places. They're full of books and FREE. :D
I'd live at the library if I could.

- Fire
I am SUCH a pyro. I used to burn shit all the time when I was a kid. Almost burned the house down a couple times, actually. Not on purpose, shit just got out of hand. You'd think I'd love the chance to have a frikkin fire in my room, but it's really a whole lot more hassle than it's worth. :(
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
22 February 2009 @ 06:30 am
  • 18:30 RDJ smokes so prettily, I almost forget what a dirty, dirty habit it is. #
  • 18:41 This movie is so completely ridiculous. Who but RDJ could pull off a lime green shirt and lemon yellow vest? Well, maybe David Tennant. #
  • 18:56 @ihasatardis JTT and John Stamos #
  • 19:08 HAHA, OMG, he's wearing an ascot and drinking girly drinks with Jake Gyllenhaal! This is the best movie ever! :D #
  • 19:09 Oh, it's also about some guy killing a bunch of people, and there's cops and shit, but, dude, RDJ and Jake Gyllenhaal being buddy buddy...A+ #
  • 19:14 Holy shit, this woman is the stupidest person ever. And this is based on a true story. I hope this is one of those exaggerations. #
  • 19:22 Sexier then RDJ with a cigarette? RDJ with a gun. HOT! #
  • 19:25 Oh no, RDJ, don't die in this movie, too!! D: #
  • 19:51 WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING THE GUN WITH NO GLOVES?!?!!! D: Shit like this takes me right out of the movie. }:( #
  • 23:22 Ow. Just tried to lick the metal ice cream scooper right after use. My tongue is numb. :( #
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The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
21 February 2009 @ 03:51 pm
The BBC allegedly believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here:
How do your reading habits stack up? Bold those books you've read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish





1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible (I never get past the creation)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman (before they were cool)
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger (Boring as hell)
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald (why are so many 'classic' books so fucking depressing?)
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams (own it)
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens (I tried SO HARD to like Dickens, but could not get through a single one of his books)
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson (It's on my ever growing To Read pile)
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath (I actually wasn't allowed to read this)
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (never tried to sit down and read the whole thing, but have read a few excerpts here and there)
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupéry (teacher read some out loud in class, does that count? I also used to watch the cartoon!)
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

19/100
 
 
The spirited lovechild of Kaylee Fry and River Tam
21 February 2009 @ 03:18 pm
My Cat )


My Bed )


FIRE! )


Snow! )


THE END